How jaw surgery can make you develop a strong stomach

Before learning about my surgery, I was just as freaked out as the next guy about the prospect of getting one's jaw cut up. Now I can think about it and talk about it like I'm thinking and talking about getting my teeth cleaned. Now I find it fascinating, what will be done to me. What's funny is sometimes I forget this fact about myself, and I unwittingly gross people out. Someone will ask what my surgery entails, and as I explain it I watch as they slowly turn white (or green) and shudder, and tell me to stop. Even my husband can't stand to hear about sawing jaws apart and screws in bones and blood. It totally skeeves him out. He has a weak stomach for blood. Whereas I can watch Grey's Anatomy surgeries or even real-life surgeries on TV and not even flinch.

With 9 days left before my surgery, I find myself overthinking. I try to destract myself but it's tough to think about anything else. I've started making lists about what to buy and what to pack. Lists make me feel a little more in control and less anxious.